August 13 12:30 a.m. Tears flooded my face finally. I hadn’t been able to sleep.
“Why are you doing this to me?” I cried desperately to God.
Peter and I spent the summer together. He knew everyone in my life.
August 8: Peter and I celebrated my 21st birthday with my youth. (The people I love the most were there including Peter)
August 12 8:00 p.m. My youth kids and I finished prayer meeting. I called Peter; I saw he tried to call. He broke my heart leaving for another girl.
August 13 6:00 p.m. I had dinner with my dad; I desperately wanted my best friend, Kristen’s company. Dad teased, “Who was that your booooyfriend?” My hurt grew.
9:00 p.m. Kristen is comforting me as I cried. Peter called; we talked quietly.
August 15: I spent the day with my youth pastor’s family. God convicted me to forgive Peter. “Why?” I asked God. He made me remember all He forgave me of and that I needed to forgive others. Dave and Elaine helped to write a letter of forgiveness to Peter.
Forgiveness was my weakness. I held grudges for a long time before. I had dated, but been hurt; this guy had left without telling me. Since then, I decided to wait on God’s timing. “This is God’s timing.” I thought. This made it harder.
Three Months Later
November 15 7:00 p.m. Peter and I had dinner with Dave and Elaine. They ask why he did everything. “God told me to.” Peter replied. “God told you to hurt me?” I thought angrily.
10:00 p.m. I prayed that night and asked God how he could let this happen.
November 16 11:00 a.m. I understand God’s plan. “She needs him to show her my love. Let this go, for the love you need is from me and you have it.” God explained gently. God’s love and peace quickly helped comfort me to let it go.
The Point: Relying on another person for your happiness and to love you does not always work out; in my case, it made it harder to let go after Peter called; the only one to put trust in completely and rely on is God, and God will always be there.
Word Count: 324
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
God's Loving Plan
August 13 12:30 a.m. Tears flooded my face finally. I hadn’t been able to sleep.
“Why are you doing this to me?” I cried hard to God.
Peter and I spent the whole summer talking and going out. He knew everyone in my life.
August 8: Peter and I celebrated my 21st birthday with my youth kids. (All the people I love the most were there including Peter)
August 12 8:00 p.m. My youth kids and I finished prayer meeting. I called Peter; I saw that he tried to call. He broke my heart leaving me for another girl.
August 13 6:00 p.m. I had dinner with my dad; I desperately wanted my best friend, Kristen’s company. Dad teased me saying “Who was that your booooyfriend?” My hurt grew more.
9:00 p.m. Kristen is comforting me as I cried. Peter called; we talked quietly.
August 15: I spent the day with my youth pastor and her husband. God convicted me to forgive Peter. Dave and Elaine helped to write a letter to tell Peter I forgive him.
Forgiveness was my weakness. I once held anger against my father for one year; we didn’t talk that year. I had dated, but been hurt; this guy had left without telling me. Since then, I decided to wait on God’s timing. “Peter walking into my life is God’s timing.” I thought. This made it harder.
Three Months Later
November 15 7:00 p.m. Peter and I had dinner with Dave and Elaine. They ask why he did everything. “God told me to.” Peter replied. “God told you to hurt me?” I thought angrily.
November 16 11:00 a.m. I understood God’s plan. Peter needed to help this girl come to God. I needed to learn to forgive, put my trust in God, and live my life completely for God before loving another. God’s love and peace quickly helped to comfort me to let it go.
The Point: Relying on another person for your happiness and to love you does not always work out; in my case, it made it harder to let go after he called. God will always be there.
Word Count: 320
“Why are you doing this to me?” I cried hard to God.
Peter and I spent the whole summer talking and going out. He knew everyone in my life.
August 8: Peter and I celebrated my 21st birthday with my youth kids. (All the people I love the most were there including Peter)
August 12 8:00 p.m. My youth kids and I finished prayer meeting. I called Peter; I saw that he tried to call. He broke my heart leaving me for another girl.
August 13 6:00 p.m. I had dinner with my dad; I desperately wanted my best friend, Kristen’s company. Dad teased me saying “Who was that your booooyfriend?” My hurt grew more.
9:00 p.m. Kristen is comforting me as I cried. Peter called; we talked quietly.
August 15: I spent the day with my youth pastor and her husband. God convicted me to forgive Peter. Dave and Elaine helped to write a letter to tell Peter I forgive him.
Forgiveness was my weakness. I once held anger against my father for one year; we didn’t talk that year. I had dated, but been hurt; this guy had left without telling me. Since then, I decided to wait on God’s timing. “Peter walking into my life is God’s timing.” I thought. This made it harder.
Three Months Later
November 15 7:00 p.m. Peter and I had dinner with Dave and Elaine. They ask why he did everything. “God told me to.” Peter replied. “God told you to hurt me?” I thought angrily.
November 16 11:00 a.m. I understood God’s plan. Peter needed to help this girl come to God. I needed to learn to forgive, put my trust in God, and live my life completely for God before loving another. God’s love and peace quickly helped to comfort me to let it go.
The Point: Relying on another person for your happiness and to love you does not always work out; in my case, it made it harder to let go after he called. God will always be there.
Word Count: 320
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Shut Up Patty!
My mom, sister, and I went to visit family in South Korea six years ago. While the trip was interesting from start to finish, nothing was as funny and rude as what my sister said when we got off the plane. It had been fourteen long hours of me being ill and unable to stand on my own.
On the plane, I was dizzy, and no food that I ate would stay down. I looked at my mom and sister sitting on either side of me with a look of confusion as to why I was the only one sick since both my sister and I had never been on plane (excluding when we traveled from Korea as babies) and also with a look asking for help to make this go away. “Shut up Patty! You’re faking it.” My sister said jealous of mom’s attention.
I knew I wasn’t, but she didn’t believe me. When we arrived in South Korea, I had a hard time, walking and standing up for that matter. My mom held my arm as we walked off the plane. My mom said to me “Don’t worry, Patty. When we get to Uncle’s house, we will get you medicine.” I nodded and thanked her. We saw my uncle then, smiled, and bowed. I had a pain in my stomach and whined for a second. After my sister said the next thing, my uncle stared at her like she was the rudest niece in the world. “Shut up!”
Point: Be conscious that everyone believes different things. While saying shut up in America in front of an elder is accepted, it is not accepted in Korea. Shut up is an insult there, especially since my uncle thought she was talking to him.
Word Count: 250 Words
On the plane, I was dizzy, and no food that I ate would stay down. I looked at my mom and sister sitting on either side of me with a look of confusion as to why I was the only one sick since both my sister and I had never been on plane (excluding when we traveled from Korea as babies) and also with a look asking for help to make this go away. “Shut up Patty! You’re faking it.” My sister said jealous of mom’s attention.
I knew I wasn’t, but she didn’t believe me. When we arrived in South Korea, I had a hard time, walking and standing up for that matter. My mom held my arm as we walked off the plane. My mom said to me “Don’t worry, Patty. When we get to Uncle’s house, we will get you medicine.” I nodded and thanked her. We saw my uncle then, smiled, and bowed. I had a pain in my stomach and whined for a second. After my sister said the next thing, my uncle stared at her like she was the rudest niece in the world. “Shut up!”
Point: Be conscious that everyone believes different things. While saying shut up in America in front of an elder is accepted, it is not accepted in Korea. Shut up is an insult there, especially since my uncle thought she was talking to him.
Word Count: 250 Words
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Education Experiences
In 7th grade when I first got out of Special Education, I had a math teacher that didn't really believe in me and didn't think I understood the work I did; I didn't, but I asked my stepdad to help me to do my work. I remember he showed me how to do all the work by hand; I proudly went into school the next day understanding everything. He gave me an F on the assignment. I was so upset, I cried at home where my stepdad was furious with my teacher. His disbelief made me doubt my mathematical abilities.
Last year, I took a health class at AACC and I got to choose which topic I would write my research paper on. I choose to write about music's effect on the brain. Not only was I interested in doing the work from the beginning, I discovered musical tools that I may be able to use in my own classroom. This teacher used this method and by doing so, gave us freedom to write about what we would like and get us interested in writing about health at the same time. She motivated us when we were unmotivated and bored.
Word Count: 200
Last year, I took a health class at AACC and I got to choose which topic I would write my research paper on. I choose to write about music's effect on the brain. Not only was I interested in doing the work from the beginning, I discovered musical tools that I may be able to use in my own classroom. This teacher used this method and by doing so, gave us freedom to write about what we would like and get us interested in writing about health at the same time. She motivated us when we were unmotivated and bored.
Word Count: 200
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